Posted by a friend. I LOVE it. Its pretty much how I feel and this blog entry...reminds me how very much I love being a mom and want to adopt a child one day. I too love being a mom and wife, but I find it difficult sometimes when there is no role model to follow. I am so grateful that I can stay at home with them everyday and train them up in the way they should go. Read what she wrote...and let it sink in Mommies!!!!
It's amazing how a few hours away from home, makes me miss it so much! If I'm out, I love coming home! Today I started my day w/ a new perspective of who I am. I am not "just a wife and a mom" Rather, my career and professional position is "Wife and Mother"--that's a much more positive twist. It seriously kept me enthusiastic about my "job" all day long! :) (hee) Lots of people invest lots of their time and energy into their career. I have chosen to make my investment is in my husband and my children. They are where my time and energy (and $$$) is focused. I truly believe I was created for this work. It is THE most fulfilling job I could ever ask for! It's not that I never do other things--we don't stop being a daughter, sister, friend, wife...once we become a mother--but being a wife and a mom comes 1st. Contrary to what modern culture tells us, being a wife, mom, and "domestic engineer" is noble work, actually it's more than that, it's an eternal work! And, I might add, that's it's full-time work! This job of mine, profession, rather, is the hardest one I've ever had. And, I've done my fair share of what I deem, "hard work" :) All other jobs I've had, had an end. Motherhood has no end. My "job" isn't over at 5 p.m., or when the sun goes down...I'm on call 24/7!
I've had 3 excellent examples of Professional Mothers in my life. They came in the form of my own Mom, and my 2 Grandmas. When I think of successful women, they pop into my mind first. (there are others, of course) They are successful in my book, because they are godly women who chose each day to put others ahead of themselves. They have lived out the scripture that says, "But whosoever will be great among you, shall be your minister; and whosoever of you will be the chiefest, shall be servant of all." (Mark 10:43-44) It's an unnatural and uncommon way to live: to be great, be a servant/ die to SELF in order to truly live. I believe that the women (and men) who have chosen to live in this way, possess great strength and the key to a blessed life. Selflessness takes great sacrifice, but it is the pathway to peace and joy. All done for Jesus, that is.
My Mom sometimes laments that she doesn't have any talent or hobbies. Well, I will say, I believe she just doesn't see her greatest talents. She is a wonderful nurturer, organizer :), and teacher. Maybe she will see it in time, but maybe not. I believe all of us kids were all better off for not having a Mom with lots of hobbies and outside interests. I'll have to remind her that WE were her hobby and her interest. :) She was there for us 100%, and still is, though in a different way. Her position is changing perhaps, from being "the nurturer" to being "the prayer warrior" :) Each equally important!
I was pondering how motherhood carries such a dichotomy! On the one hand, it's the hardest job I've ever had, but yet it is the most rewarding one I've ever had. It's the most painful thing I've ever experienced (in many ways), but yet, I'm willing to subject myself to the pain, because I know the fruits of reward there are. There is less and less time for Self, but that's a good thing! I've never known such depths of love, fear, protection, and pain, but somehow there's that desire to know those depths. Motherhood brings out the best and the worst. I've never experienced such excruciating sleep deprivation until I had a 2 year old, an infant who wasn't sleeping through the night, and was pregnant w/ horrible insomnia. (**sidenote: whew! but I did actually live to tell the story! I've never heard of anyone dying from sleep deprivation, although I sometimes wondered it I would. Lack of sleep is a VERY real thing when you're the one going through it!**)After becoming a mom, there's some kind of mechanism that causes you to forget the pain of labor and delivery (oh, and sleep deprivation)---how is that? I don't think I'll ever grow out of the desire for pregancy and babies...it's a subject of interest that I don't think will dissipate, since experiencing both of those joys. Motherhood is a refining fire, a perspective change, and a tool used by God to raise up more saints.
It's so easy to get bogged down in the daily grind, and not see the forest for the trees. In about 20-25 years, my kids will be grown-ups like me, and although I'll still be their mother, I'll also be their sister-in -Christ...Lord willing, for all eternity. Oh, to have the perspective that these babies of mine will be adults furthuring God's Kingdom. The thought of being a Mother, by Profession has added a bit of sparkle to this otherwise, very grey November Monday. The promise in Prov. 22:6 has such hope and such responsibility..."Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old, he will not depart from it." Today I'm spurred on to train my children in God's ways and to view my work as a high and holy calling, as long as it's done unto the Lord. So, there, I've written down some of my scattered thoughts. I need to come back to this when I'm having what I call, "A Crazy Day!" This is an encouragement to myself, and a documentation that I do have some time to think....some days. :)
Monday, November 23, 2009
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Monday, November 9, 2009
Race Day & Zahavah!
"Its a good day, anytime you finish!" Brett finished too, but again long story as to why I was there but without a camera! :)
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Sunday, October 25, 2009
Randomness
Just my random thoughts this morning.... I really need to shut off the TV and maybe even facebook and read more. There are some pretty horrible things on TV now...I can't believe some of it. Books...Knowledge is power. :) And I'm happy that Eli and Zahavah enjoy sitting on their beds flipping through books at such a young age. Yeah!
I love my kids. I remember the day and where I was when God laid it upon my heart to stay home w/ my children. Its the best decision I have ever made (its also the hardest job ever). And Brett has been awesome with thinking its a great idea, standing beside me and helping me through the tough times. I wish all moms had the desire to stay home w/ their kids. Its what American (actually all nations) children need in todays world.
I have a horrible time being able to let go and forgive pedofiles. And don't be a fool...they are closer than you think! Its the one area that I can honestly say...Lord help me to forgive those who purposely sexually abuse and assault children b/c I can't. And I'm also glad its up to God and not me. He is a just God and I trust him. Its actually physical abuse too, and murder...its all so heavy and sick. On the news and in the paper u hear and read about it. And I think..."How can they kill their own child or sexually assault their own daughter?" And then I quickly recall that we live in a sick and fallen world and Satan is alive and well. But forgiveness in this area is something I'm still working on.
I love sunshine!!!!
I love sleeping precious babies.
I love adoptions...what an amazing act of love on the biological mother's part...wow!
I love Jesus...I don't claim to know it all, nor understand it all...but its worth every breath I take to live for HIM alone. I love family. I am happy to live so close to mine, even though we don't always get along. Its family and nothing is better.
I truly miss my family that has passed on this past decade...My Uncle Pete, My Aunt Brenda, Grandma Great & Grandma Judy...they were very close family members and their presence is very much missed during family gatherings. What lays heavy on my heart is that they didn't get to meet Zahavah, and some didn't get to meet Eli. My Aunt & Grandma Great loved babies and they would have "ate her up".
Marriage was created to make you HOLY not HAPPY. Its tough sometimes, but its a life worth living. I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams with Brett and my family. We know we are fortunate and talk about it often. We want to share our blessings & our eternal gift with those less fortunate & unaware of God's AMAZING grace.
I think an affair has a horrific ripple effect on family. I do understand that marriages are incredibily difficult and there are times of loneliness etc etc etc., but in the end its a very selfish act and I don't think its one worth pursuing.
I need to run more! My current excuse is (cause the only time I can go is early in the morning before Brett goes to work) its too dark & charleston isn't that safe! Gym? Thats a possiblity but I'm thinking Wii Fit! What do u think?
I'm done rambling, I need more coffee. I hope someone was enlightened.
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Thursday, October 22, 2009
Random photos from this past week! ENJOY!
This is not from the past week, this is from Brett's college homecoming! Its rare we get a photo of us together!
Me, my two babies & our new dog Twink.
Zahavah and Twink are the best of friends. She sticks her hands in his mouth and he just licks them...all day long...and she laughs everytime. Its really cute.
Brett wanted to snap this shot as he was cutting away his hair. Him and Micayla had a fun time w/ different cuts along the way. I am just glad the chin hair is gone.
Brett and the little ones had fun raking the leaves up & playing in them. I always love to take photos of this. Eli notices me, but not baby Z.Posted by Brett and Micah at 7:40 AM 2 comments
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Last Day woooohoooo!
1. This makes me sick! I bought a baby walker off amazon some months ago and now Zahavah can walk well...we only got a few months out of it and paid like $65 for that thing! Its going to the garage sale pile. :(
2. Spirit of Africa CD.
3. Dead plant...trash.
4. 2 mops...trash.
5. A small cooler...garage sale.
So now that I am finished...I really need to have a garage sale...b/c I don't want to have this stuff sitting in my garage all winter. Its amazing how full my garage sale bins get over the winter months just with clothes and toys my kids outgrow...and as it is right now...they are full already. Come one, come all to my fall sale. I'll let you know when!
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Tuesday, October 6, 2009
short and sweet...
trash trash trash...all collected in big boxes and taken to the curb...my house is getting clutter free! YEAH!
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Monday, October 5, 2009
Only three more days of getting rid of stuff!
I really only got rid of two groups of things today....a huge stack of CDs & a good pile of hats and gloves that we don't need! Wednesday is the last day of my ridding! I'm not like Flylady...I'm not doing it everyday...holy cow I can't imagine!
Writing it on my blog has been a good way to hold myself accountable to remember to do it! Not in a good mood, as I just realized I chipped a tooth today...grrr! And my teenager is lying!
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